Marret talks about her experience with uterine myoma. She describes the conventional medical background as well as the holistic view of it. And of course her very personal one!
Everything that happens to us is a reflection of who we are.
Definition and symptoms of uterine myoma
A uterine myoma is a benign tumor on the muscle layer of the uterus. Oestrogens (female sex hormones) promote the growth of these tumors which is why they shrink after menopause as the production of oestrogen ceases with the menopause. About one in four women between the ages of 30 and 40 is affected and fortunately myomas very rarely develop into malignant tumors.
As far as the symptoms of a myoma are concerned it can be said that in some cases they do not cause any symptoms at all and therefore do not impose any restrictions on those affected. In some cases however the following symptoms may occur:
- increased painful menstrual bleeding
- abdominal pain
- increased urination
- pain during sexual intercourse
- childlessness and miscarriages
Surgery for uterine myomas (fibroids)
Small fibroids are rarely removed surgically. However if fibroids have grown to a certain size it may be advisable or even necessary to treat them by removal (myomectomy), minimally invasive sclerotherapy (embolisation) or peeling (myoma enucleation) or by surgical removal of the uterus (hysterectomy).
Myoma diagnosis or: What the symptom wants to tell us
I believe that all the symptoms and diseases that afflict us in the course of our lives are more than just any symptom or disease. Most of the time they appear in an area with which we are currently dealing or the area stands for a topic that is currently presented to us and wants to be looked at. When I found out about 2 months ago that I have a rather large myoma of the uterus I was neither surprised nor shocked. Probably a part of me felt that there was something that didn’t belong there or to put it another way that I should take a look at the topic of giving birth and birth itself.
Holistic approach or: Why I was diagnosed with a myoma
I decided to have the myoma surgically removed because it was so large and heavy. I have thus made the best possible use of the possibilities of conventional medicine. At the same time however I have also dealt with the significance of this myoma on a holistic level. I could also have gotten a stomach ulcer or a heart attack. Together with my osteopath, my theta healer and my breathing coach I have worked out and accepted for myself that this diagnosis at this point in my life is about birth.
I have no desire to have children. I feel good with it. Nothing is wrong with me. But we do not only bring children into the world. Birth is also associated with self-realization. And I was allowed to learn that in this context. That I am allowed to look again at the levels in my life where I am not yet living my full potential.
In the course of my life I have realized that sometimes it takes a symptom or an illness for us to continue on our path. So that we arrive more and more at ourselves and realize our true self. Our body-mind-soul-unity is a miracle. We may and can rely on the fact that everything happens for our highest and best good and that there are no coincidences.
Femininity or: What makes me a woman
Since the myoma was very large and very heavy in my case and grew from the back of the uterine wall it was not clear before the operation whether there would be enough tissue to perform uterus-preserving surgery i.e. to save or reconstruct the uterus. While dealing with the possibility of losing my uterus I realized that this would definitely have called for a personal examination of “what makes me female?!” and “when am I circumcised in my femininity?!“
Not only from a holistic-health point of view but also on an energetic and sexual level I was worried about being robbed of an important organ and important part of my femininity. This scared me very much and on the other hand it made me feel very connected to myself in a way that I had not been able to before with regard to this topic. For the first time I have consciously dealt with what femininity means to me, in what form I have lived it so far and how I would like to live it in the future.
Disease as an opportunity or: Why myoma is a gift for me
My uterus could be preserved. I still felt very vulnerable after the operation. I felt what a gift my body is and how grateful I am that it not only serves me so faithfully but also gives me so many beautiful feelings. It also fascinates me again and again how everything plays into each other. Just as I was physically freed from a disturbing factor I was also able to break down mental blockages. Opening myself anew for the thought that there is still something slumbering in me that wants to be learned. That I can give birth without giving birth to a child. That we can dissolve or overcome traumas by having corrective experiences. But above all that everything that doesn’t knock us down only makes us stronger.
Vitamin FEM or: What the myoma has to do with this women and sex blog
Vitamin FEM was born not so long ago. Not least as a platform for stories by and for women and all who are interested in what makes women tick. At that time I did not know that I would one day write a personal experience report on the topic of myoma. But again it shows that everything has its purpose. Everything happens for a reason. And in the end everything makes perfect sense.
Give yourself a hand and sex-up your life!
Julia & Marret – Vitamin FEM
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